“”You have commanded your precepts
to be kep diligently.
Oh that my ways may be steadfast
in keeping your statutes!
Then I shall not be put to shame
having my eyes fixed on all your commandments.
I will praise you with an upright heart
when I learn your righteous rules.
How can a young man keep his way pure?
By guarding it according to your word.
With my whole heart I seek you;
let me not wander from your commandments!
I have stored up your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.
Blessed are you, O LORD;
teach me your statutes.
Deal bountifully with your servant,
that I may live and keep your word.
I am a sojourner on the earth;
hide not your commandments from me!
my soul clings to the dust
give me life according to your word!
my soul melts away for sorrow
strengthen me according to your word!
put false ways far from me
and graciously teach me your law!
give me understanding, that I may keep your law
and observe it with all my heart
lead me in the path of your commandments
for I delight in it
incline my heart to your testimonies
and not to selfish gain
turn my eyes from looking at worthless things
and give me life in your ways.
confirm to your servant your promise,
that you may be feared
Behold, I long for your precepts
in your righteousness give me life!
Let your steadfast love come to me, O lord
your salvation according to your promise.
(selected scriptures from Psalm 119: 1-41)
There is something powerful in knowing God’s Truth. In times of trouble and need it may be a source of comfort or strength. In times of rejoicing, it may serve as a reminder for where the Glory pertaining to that celebration resides. In times of confronting and repenting of sin it provides the truth of a cleansing and washing by way of Jesus’s blood. And in times of temptation, it may as well be the only place we can find the ability to fight and come out from under it without having falling in to sin.
In the case of the latter, it is not merely sufficient to know the Truth of God’s Word. We know that the Pharisees knew God’s word…they had it memorized, but failed to recognize the word come to life as Jesus walked before them. We know that Satan knows God’s word. It was memorized enough to be used as the source of temptation that Jesus faced while he was in the wilderness (see Matthew 4:1-11). But we also know that as believers, it serves as a tool for which we can fight temptation and begin to know God more fully. Hebrews 4:12 states:
“For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.”
I am circling around the idea that we must know God’s word, but we also must allow it to rest in our hearts, be meditated upon in our minds, and allow it to penetrate our very being that transformation might take place within us and power may be obtained as we reach for it in those times of temptation. It is not enough to simply know the scripture and to be able to engage in theological discussions. We must be transformed. Scripturally it’s possible…but I wonder if in reality it is practiced as much as one might think as we look upon the people who fill the pews of a church on Sunday morning.
Abiding in God’s word such that transformation is happening and the available power is used wisely is a practice that comes and goes in my own life, and perhaps in the lives of most. I face temptation and fight successfully. I face temptation, sort of fight and fail. I face temptation and outright succumb, ignoring God’s word for the sake of that immediate gratification or transient fulfillment that I think those sins might provide. All of the scenarios are true…some more than others. At the end of the day, however, I really do want to be pure and blameless before God…and this morning I was reminded was the source of that even being a remote possibility lies in God’s word and the place it holds in my innermost.
Abba, let your word penetrate my life. God, renew me and strengthen me and those around me according to your word and the power it holds. I seek deliverance from those sins that are so blatant and clear to the world around me…and perhaps even more so those that are dark and hidden from everyone but me and you. I want to stand as the woman you desire me to be…the woman you are transforming me to become. Renew that desire and love for your word that I once had. I want to be the same person, a right reflection of you, to all that look upon me – when I stand before them and when I’m alone, behind closed doors. I want to be a right reflection of you regardless of who is around me at church, at home, at work, and when I’m in the presence of you alone. Bring conviction where none stands. By your word, bring light into the dark places of my heart and life. I am broken, and weary, and sinful…help me to not buy into the lies. In the thoughts of CS Lewis, I am like a child who goes on playing in mud puddles because I do not know the breadth of what lies in an offer to vacation on a beach by the sea. God I am too easily satisfied…I don’t believe that fighting now will preserve my life for a greater satisfaction later, when you provide for me the full depth of your promises. Please, father…bring your word into my life…with fullness and power, give me the strength to fight myself, my flesh, and my sin for the sake of You, Your love and ultimately your Glory. Amen.